I am sitting here watching Lois and Clark, Season 1. I have never seen this show before. It is so interesting to see Dean Cain and can’t remember her name.. I am good with names.. I will remember before I finish this entry.. (or right after I hit submit).
I am loving hubby’s laptop. I love using this while watching tv at night. It helps me keep the munchies away. Can’t eat with this on my lap..
I went to the docs today. I finally got the results to the ultrasound for my abdominal pains. Fatty liver.. Kinda freaks me out a bit. I did end up doing a bit of research on it.. Definately means I can not give up eating healthy and exercising. I have commanded my friends to be tough with me.. I totally need tough love here. I will say, I think I have been doing pretty good. I lost 7lbs in 1 week. Yep 7. I know you are not supposed to lose more than like 2 a week, however, I have been staying in my calorie range and only exercising 20min a day on my bike. I am not starving.. still eating a bit of stuff I shouldn’t be eating.. and tonight’s meatloaf was out of this world.. It seems to be easy to drop the first 20lbs. Water maybe? After that it gets slower.. not sure how slow because by then I am back to my old ways. Not this time.. (Someone hold me accountable) This is definately something I have to do.. With the Lord’s help, I can do it!
I can’t wait til the middle of February.. It appears my brother won’t be able to come up to see his daughter.. So that means that I get both Jade and Kate for Winter break. (Sorry Bill) I can’t help but get a little excited. I love having the girls here.. and the years just go by so quickly. Jade will be a beautiful young woman before we know it.. I have to treasure every moment I can get with these girls.
Most of you know how much we love Dr. Who and Heroes. We were so excited to see the last Dr. Who
has joined the cast of Heroes.
Anna has a crush on the new Dr. Who
(David Tenant – Barty Crouch Jr. in Harry Potter Goblet of Fire).
. She told me he was so handsome.. pretended to faint and then said quickly.. I am going to marry that man someday!” I am guessing she is going to have alot of crushes before her teen years.. Am I in trouble or what?
Anna has been getting into books. We are reading three different series.. The first we started was Hopscotch Hill,
and now Animal Ark Pets.
We are collecting the animal ark pets series for her bookcase. She just loves animals and the series is so perfect for her. I love that they also have the series for older kids.. Animal Ark. We read a chapter every night before bed.. I want her to have a true love for books..I think this is a good start.
Pictures pictures.. I so have to get them uploaded.. I am hoping to have time tomorrow.. Roberta, bug me about it.. ok. I have it on my to do list.. but it keeps getting put aside. Yes, Donna, the rice was for the snow.. Anna actually used it for the snowman, and cotton balls for the snow on the ground.. I will take a pic tomorrow also.. I know.. promises, promises..
Ok.. time to go log in my food journal over on sparkpeople.com. If any of you have an acct there, I would love to add you as a friend..
Have a good night..
Ok, had to cheat.. Teri Hatcher..Gotta love the internet.
- My daughter is going to be a complete Sci-fi nerd.
- She loves Dr. Who
- We got to record her in ballet class Saturday.
- It was sneak a peek day.
- Then we dropped her off at my mom’s for a while.
- We went to Ponderosa Buffet and Borders
- It was so nice browsing a bookstore without a child to keep an eye on
- She was upset when we came back 3 hours later.
- She wanted to stay there for 5 hours..lol
- I have been trying to exercise and eat right again
- Been spending alot of time on Sparkpeople.com
- Anna has been saying the most amazing things lately
- But I haven’t been writing them down..
- Bad bad mommy!
- I don’t know what else to say..
- This is how my brains have been lately
- just tons of rambling.. various thoughts
- Let me think.. hmmm
- We had craft day last week..
- We made a snow man picture..
- Blue paper, white circles, rice, googly eyes, pasta circles,
cotton balls, and linguine pasta, various shaped foam (hearts, stars,
- They had fun
- The friend’s 4 year old boy had the look of total delight when he got to touch the rice.. lol.
- I didn’t take pics
- and now I have run out of time
- Time to wake up David
- He has to get ready for some job searching..
- Pray for him, k
- Have a Happy Monday!
Popping in to say a quick hello.. I have not been able to find the time to post at all lately. If I happen to have a moment or two.. I don’t know what to write. lol.
I want to thank you all for the wonderful comments. Especially to weadopt2001 whom I have enjoyed reading for years. Thank you so much for you words.. They really meant alot to me.
I am doing much better. Focusing on other things.. (Like my health) instead of dwelling on what I don’t have. I have a wonderful husband, beautiful children and a home and the Lord has provided for us numerous amounts of times. I know that he has the best plan for me.. and I will wait patiently for it to be revealed.
Now I am off to prepare a craft for craft day. A friend brings her children once a week and we do lunch and crafts..
Have a great weekend!
Many of you who know me know that the desire I have is to have a big family. However, the Lord must have other plans for us. I finally was able to stop obsessing over having another baby and focus on my family now. About a month ago I received a phone call. Someone we know is pregnant. She is not able to care for children and her sister wanted to know if we would like to adopt. I spent the next few weeks trying so hard not to get my hopes up.. After speaking with Angie (the mom to be’s sister) I started to really get excited. Well, we found out that there was apparently a mix up with the blood sample. She is not pregnant. This really devastated me and I was upset that I allowed myself to hope again.
Last night I went to my Pastor’s home. I was able to hold their 1 month old baby boy.. I was totally enjoying the scent and feel of that baby. I loved talking to him and watching him watch me. He looked at anything interesting on the wall.. he just studied them. I did not want to put that baby down no matter what.. One of the men there came up to me and said.. you are a natural. When is the next one coming? I smiled but inside it hurt. I wanted to say.. when the Lord decides I am worthy. I also caught my husband watching me and smiling. Tears came to my eyes.. I tried to hide it.. tried hard not to let the emotions flow.. After holding him for quite some time.. he fell asleep in my arms.. I watched his little eyes closing. I felt the trust he had that whoever was holding him would take care of him.. as he drifted off to sleep. I held him like that until we were ready to leave. Then I moved him to his seat gently and said a silent goodbye.
I don’t know what the Lord’s plan is..but I pray that if children in my future are not His will for me, that He will take away these desires from my heart.
My heart is breaking…
Pray for me…