Living in Silence
Is getting quiet lonely! I know that may sound silly when I have my family here.. but they have even stopped saying too much because they know they will have to repeat it. To be honest, I have been no better.. I have started to pretend to hear them.. I just nod and smile and hope they are not asking a question..lol. The irritating thing is doors.. It constantly sounds like someone is slamming in anger. The vibrations just make it so much worse in my head.. I have to constantly remind myself, it isn’t them. It is definitely going to be interesting with my nieces next week..
Yep, I have one.. and I have been finding children I used to babysit.. all grown up now. Even the kids that grew up with David. Oh I have been teary eyed just looking. I am amazed.. some are married, with children. Some are finishing up their last years of high school. These are children that I have watched for years.. but have lost contact since I married Angel and moved out to CT. Some discoveries have not been so good. I found out a young girl I used to watch.. died last August. She was 17. I sat in front of my laptop and cried.. I had just been looking at pictures of her and the other children. She has grown to a beautiful young woman. I am sad I wasn’t able to keep in touch. Many of my family and relatives know how much the children in my past mean to me. I am thankful for all the wonderful memories I have.
If you have a facebook and need a new friend on there..lol .. go ahead and look me up. Just let me know you read my xanga.. I like to know who is on my list.
Well, I guess I should go back to cleaning Anna’s room.. it is scary in there.. I need to make room for 3-4 girls to sleep there next week.. yikes.